I was scared shitless you were going down. What I really wanted for you was getting you back to Hermione with researching and helping women. I tried to tell you that if you thought like me you would be better at it than I am because you have so much more academic knowledge in your head. I don’t think you are some fake doll to be used and played with. You are someone who was born to excel at supporting females, both adult and minor. I support that. You did not reattribute my me too ideas after men stole them who never practice them. That hurt you need to adopt them for yourself and believe in them. You can’t keep treating innocent men like this. You can’t keep misguiding women. I am trying to use what I learned struggling in unruly land to help you guide the movement. Don’t fight good men who are willing to help you. I am not trying to get you in trouble. I know about so much that could help you with your passions I just don’t understand why you don’t want to speak at length about it with me. I am sorry about what other men did to you. I am sorry about mentally berating you just now. I always believed in you doing these things and I told you so when you asked to chat with me last November. I am sorry your number was hacked away. I loved the Hermione researching when you were a kid and when you became an activist I was really happy. I loved that. I just wish you would listen and really put some of this stuff into practice. You are a victim and what they did to you needs to be talked about. You can’t keep pandering to psychological and sexual predators. I can help you with your mental health naturally. I had to heal my abnormal psyche by myself because current methods couldn’t understand it. I love it when you are genuine, snarky, aggressive and even hostile. I don’t mind difficult emotions because they show me why you hurt. I am really sorry about the complexity of this situation but I have always wanted you to be a profound and amazing woman. I wanted you to take credit for some of this work as a woman and I couldn’t have done it without. When you began influencing me it was brilliant and when you hurt I hurt with you and studied it. You have to understand you and my former wife helped the most with this. These men did nothing. I know because it’s my fucking work. I couldn’t have done any of it without you. The men acted like you were just a spokesperson but you were the complex study. You’re not a coloring book. You’re a priceless work of art with many facets. I am tired of you being treated like a plaything. The men only wish they were as intricate as you. That’s why they are so obsessed with you. I admired you because I saw myself in you. I always loved that as a woman. Guys like that want to be like me but they never want to put in the work and fight the hard fight. They don’t want to be pacifist against backchannel millionaire and billionaires. I only got this far because I hurt and cared for you when you were struggling through what they put you through. I was your support not your aggressor. They tricked you into thinking their poison was medicine and what I was doing was obsessive. They’re stalkers Emma. Don’t you get that? Don’t get destroyed by if I can’t have her no one can. I wanted to cry all night too. I am really sorry for being critical but as always I am frustrated. You used to love this shit. If time man came around you would run to him. I feel horrified that such a brilliant woman might be lost. I want to abduct you and tie you to a chair and spoon feed you knowledge. I just feel bad because I see too much of what could be and nothing of that in what currently is. All I see is a woman teetering on the brink, needing soothing, rest and mental stimulation. I don’t like being baited into talking what I am like in bed. I know your life could be more meaningful than that. I just feel bad because I remember how intelligent you were destined to be. I want you to be that way again. You could be writing this piss yourself. Just give me a chance to speak with you about it. I wish it would be a longer amount of time so I could answer questions and explain what is needed. You could share some of it with women or your fans even, the things I haven’t said that are important to you. I’m just sad by the prospect of not doing that for you after what I’ve felt. It hurts. The confusion and frustration hurts. I don’t like writing long winded crap like this. I just feel bad about freaking out and am confused about why you don’t want to talk. I don’t hurt women. I just wish Belle and Hermione would come back. You don’t have many characters that are dolls. You always choose some one brave and brilliant. Be them again. I want that. We need that.
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